I am on my way to Carmel By The Sea, California- to be a part of the 2016 Michael’s Makers Summit. This is a three day crafting extravaganza gathering like-minded creative souls such as myself. I am beyond honored.
How did this come to be, you ask?
There I said it! Wow, that felt really good!
Find it hard to believe?
I was right there with you.
About 6 months back, I stumbled upon a contest through Michael’s craft stores, using the hashtag #madewithmichaels. As most of you know, that is pretty much everything I make! So I entered.
And forgot about it.
Until an email arrived months later notifying me that I was one of the winners.
Still don’t believe this? Well, at this point, neither did I.
In fact, I replied back to the email, “Dear So & So… Is this a joke? Sincerely, Monica Stoltzfus.”
The response was “No, this is very much real.”
Yet, I STILL had reservations!
Why was I having such a hard time accepting that something so awesome could happen to me?!
After watching an information video, debating it over with family, talking in depth to a travel agent, and securing up child care on my end- I was starting to get comfortable with the reality of going.
But not FULLY.
I realized I was flying out on my baby’s birthday…Enter bad mom feelings again.
But I had to look in the mirror and tell myself she is turning 2. TWO! She doesn’t know the difference between Monday and Christmas!
So… I decided to do it.
But I kept it to myself.
I can’t quite explain it, but it has something to do with still feeling like I didn’t deserve it.
I was the only one getting in the way of owning this experience.
So I kicked myself to the curb.
And here I am,
Do I think I deserve 72+ child free hours in a stunning setting talking about Mod Podge and burlap?
Yes. Yes, I do.
And I’ll tell you why-
“Please put on your own oxygen mask before assisting those around you…”
Sometimes it’s about YOU!
And that’s okay!
It’s not selfish to take care of yourself: to do what it takes to rest, refresh , and recharge your batteries.
How can we possibly be expected to help others if we are worn down, emotional basket cases, who can’t complete a sentence let alone a thought…gasping for air…
Here’s the truth: we can’t.
That being said, I am 100% guilty of dishing out this advice, but wallowing in self neglect.
But NOT today.
Do you know what is on my agenda?
“At leisure.” For hours.
What does that even mean??
No, this is not a universal prank being played on an over tired mom.
This is REAL.
And I only share this to inspire you.
You- the weary, over worked, anxious reader.
Good things can happen.
And they do,
In one of my favorite movies, Enchanted, Patrick Dempsey was constantly calling Amy Adams’ Giselle, ” delusional.”
He found her fairy-tale perception of reality to be grossly out of touch.
I have been compared to the likes of our sweet Giselle, and you know- I’ll take it.
I don’t always break out in song, although I do find it to honestly help put a pep in my dish washing and constant toy pick up.
But I do believe we share a similar outlook.
I prefer to see things as “half-full”, I enjoy making people laugh and smile, and I am absolutely hopelessly hopeful.
What becomes a problem, is when I find myself turning negative and skeptical- all usually on a very subliminal level.
And that was exactly the case with this trip.
I felt it was too good to be true.
So if you’ll excuse me, I have to go put on my rose colored glasses & catch this wave.
I’m finally feeling brave enough to say “Yes” & who knows where it will take me.
I hear California is beautiful this time of year…